Hurting...

Here we go again!  I’m not mad.  I’m past that phase of my life.  I’m hurt, so hurt.  How could things get any worse than what I’m feeling right now?  I bow to be the best mother to my children if not the best wife.  I tried to be the best wife but I always fail.  Numerous times I have tried.  One became tired, one gave up!  It’s both our lost.  Mine’s more hurtful because I was full of hope.  I hope for a brighter future including you, for a life with you.  I plan a life with you.  But those plans weren’t yours but mine alone according to you.  So why am I always including you?  Now I’ve reached the end.  What you’ll get from me is what you want.  What you will see is what you only want.  I wouldn’t try to show you love because you refuse it.  I wouldn’t try to show you affection because you abhor it.  Much more, do not look for where you’re unable to show it either.  Don't worry, i'm staying and i will let you stay.  No talks of separation. No whatsoever.